Two Thousand and Zen

So before I even got my mouth open to start ranting and comlplaining about what a poo this year has been, my friend Simon, an ex lover who both drives me bonkers and who I adore with a passion, told me to stop looking at the negative and concentrate on what wonderful things did happen this year and to move on in to next year with a smile on my face (and possibly a champagne coupe in my hand)!

I just love it when friends love you enough to not take the same bollocks you keep spouting and literally slap you out of the pessamistic cycle you have once again found swirling around in - and friends like these find you a soggy mess and provide you with some air.

So there will be no talk of the love that went horribly wrong, the family that I hate to Love, the crappy job, the ever so slow process of learning and heading towrds my goal of Psychology.

Instead I will bask in the knowledge that I found a new love and interest in bars and hospitality, thus learning a new trade that will hopefully become something of a full time occupation. I learnt the art of tease and sexiness within the genre of burlesque and have even started to perform in public (oh my!) it's allowed me to discover, once again, the overwhelming passion I have for performance - that unique relationship a performer has with their audience that cannot be created anywhere else. I have new beautiful pictures on my left arm - one inparticular that reminds me of my sensitive, innocent and gorgeous heart and soul just yearning to live, learn and love everything and everyone. I went overseas and discovered new and amazing places and touched base with friendly faces I had missed so much. I successfully got through more of my degree - one more stepping stone down toward my ultimate goal, I learnt more about me and shared wonderful times with others.

So next year I have named two thousand and zen - the year in which rather than seeing problems, we see solutions and we enjoy the moment for what it is. My goals are beginning a job in hospitality while I finish my degree, I want to start a book club, I want to nourish good relationship and walk away from the bad, I want to learn more about me, and something tells me that a half marathon under 2 hours may be on the cards as well.

You with me? If we get scared we can hold hands xx